Current mood:	blank
Current music:	used alone this holiday

to get intimate
ya know, like, i really love having matt around again, hes my boy, and altho, sometimes were like ready to kill each other, and like hate each other and like, as much as he might have disagreed with my whole deal, idk, if he knows how much i apperciate him, we might not always understand each other, but i feel like, i know i could count on him for ne thing....thats enough of that, but yea i love that boy, and really thats all i can say






but to piece something else together......i think i kinda figured out why melvin avoids me now, i mean i love that kid to death, and one point i knew i could count on him for NE THING, like the countless nights we just chilled around doing nothing, and whatnot, but like, i wish we could just come to terms, or like, maybe he could just tell me whats goin on, i remember how he used to tell me how much he apperciated me, and i really miss him liek to death, we got along so great, but, since him and matt didnt get along, i think maybe since, me and matt r friends he feels he cant be friends with me.....idk what it is, but like idk, i go to visit and he gets cold to me, and idk what the fuck his deal is, buti fuckin loved him, and it just kinda sucks...



furthermore..chris ruf, is the coolest kid, in ever, hes a good kid, and i know, we understand each other very well, and idk i love him.......


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